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Currently watching a documentary on BBC 3 called “Failed by the NHS” which is about how people with mental disorders are treated badly by the NHS, and I fully understand everything cus of my experience.

When I was brought into A&E after a suicide attempt by overdose a couple of months ago, what happened was after being checked on by the doctors I had a brief talk with a psychiatrist for like 10 mins. Then they discharged me, said “just go talk to a GP” then rang me a taxi to get home and said “we’ll send you the bill for the taxi”.

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I want to find someone I can say this too in person

Last month I attempted to kill myself after a long period of depression. I later found out from the hospital that there is a high chance I have bipolar disorder as prior to that incident I have been prone to strong mood swings and unstable thoughts and delusions. I need to see my doctor again and its likely I will be set therapy and medication, but I’m terrified to go cus I don’t want it all to be true. The one thing I want is for someone out of my family I trust and love to comfort me through this (my family don’t know either). I think I know who I want to tell but I care too much about her to put her through this

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alexandramjf:

lol true story, but I still adore the show. <3

alexandramjf:

lol true story, but I still adore the show. <3

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Still haven’t told anyone I know irl about this all either. Feel like I don’t know anyone who could handle it :/

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Think I’m gonna go to the doctors tomorrow again. Seeing as the last time I went after my incident last month I found out that I might be undiagnosed bipolar and either need to be put on medication or get CBT :/

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I can’t catch a break. The past couple of days I’ve been hanging out with the girl I’ve liked for so long. But yesterday she met one of my friends and ┬áreally fancies him. Game on

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The health care system in the UK is terrible for mental health. It’s like they just don’t give a fuck

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Its almost 5am and I’m in the hospital being treated for paracetemol overdose and self harm. Such fun :(

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Love how my roommate’s idea of supporting me was leaving me in the house alone for a couple of days with no one to talk to whilst I have a nice little relapse. Ah well I really don’t care anymore

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Hope no one I know in real life reads this but…

Last night was a tough night for me. I hit such a low I finally snapped and attempted to kill myself by overdosing. My roommate found me and helped me through the night. And he said he’s gonna support me in getting help.

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